Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Giving in to What I Know I Need to do...

I felt miserable as soon as I woke up this morning. On my way to work I felt like I heard God say, "What is the matter with you? Go home and take care of those babies!" Did I listen? Of course not. I found out that I was in charge when I got to work. I was very relieved that I would get to sit down most of the day. Well, the babies didn't seem to care. I proceeded to have a miserable day. Lots of pressure between my legs even when I was sitting. I broke down to a coworker at lunch as I realized that I needed to give in and put these babies first. I love my job, but I love these babies more. I called my boss when I got home and told her that unless something drastically changed with how i am feeling, I will not be back to work until after the babies are born. Adam has an excellent job, but we have come to rely on two incomes, so this will be a challenge to say the least. We are trusting what my body and God are telling me and know He will take care of us, but giving up my income makes us very nervous. So I'm at home now resting as much as possible. I'm probably going to be accepting help soon with meals and with Jozey. We'll see how it goes over the weekend. Lots of prayers please!

10 comments:

  1. I'm proud of you Marilee! Keep you and those little ones safe...thats all that matters right now =) Please let me know who is getting together the meal plans and what not and please count me in! Take care of yourself!
    Amber Shade

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  2. Marilee I think you are doing what is best, this is not going to be an easy pregnancy and you need to listen to your body. God will provide you guys with everything you need! Take care!!!
    Joey

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  3. I am definitly thinking about you. Keep those babies safe and you have to do what is best. Sometimes it doesn't always seem easy to be able to make those sacrifices. It was really hard for me to go resource and we have had to make alot of sacrifices but I knew God wanted me to be there for every moment I could with my little ones. I am not just saying it and it is NO burden at all I will help out with Jozey however you need or with you. Just keep it in mind the boys go to school Mon-thurs. from 1245-320 but my mom is always home. I only work either Tues. 4hrs or Fri. 8hrs. starting March 2 I will only be working 12hr Tues. I love ya and let me know if you need anything!!!!!

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  4. I think you made an excellent decision. Premature babies are no walk in the park and I am glad you are doing EVERYTHING to keep them safe inside you!

    Praying for you!

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  5. Bless your heart... now thats a GOOD mommy decision!.. I can totally help with a meal if you give the lady my name and number.. or if you post the lady's email.. I will email her.. Hope you feel better after resting!.. Just keep your feet up, and eat ice cream, ice cream, ice cream! :)

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  6. Thanks for all of the nice comments. I feel much better since ive been resting more. No pain unless I'm up for more than an hour at a time. I can get what I need to get done accomplished in that hour. I will let you all know when we need help. I don't want Jozey gone everyday, but someone coming over and playing with her for a couple hours late morning really helps, so if anyone and their kids wants to come for a play date let me know. I plan on being home everyday.

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  7. Marilee, sorry to hear that you are having difficulties already. You definately made the right decision to go home and take it easy. You want to keep those precious little ones in as long as possible!! I will have to give you a call and bring Keira over to play with Jozey! Hope you are feeling better and let us know if we can do anything for you guys. How many weeks now?
    Tina

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  8. Tina-Thanks! I'm only 16 wks. Closer and closer to viability though. I've heard at 24 wks they have a chance. Know someone who has beautiful three year old twins that were born at 25 wks (yeah Seaborn twins!). Let's pray that mine stick around in there a little longer than that though. Almost halfway to my drs 36 wk goal which is exciting.

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  9. marilee i have loved reading this. as a working mommy of two, i really wanted to write in on this particular part of your process. i struggled a lot with my transition to working mother (especially being at a job where i give all my energy to other people...students...all day long, and often have after school activities). i finally realized that work is work...but the days, hours, and moments with my family and especially my babies will never come back to me. i also realized that my health needs to be an utmost priority or i won't have any "me" to give to those babies (OR my job). so i set tight boundaries around my health and my kids and family. my priorities were career then family, but now those two have switched. i thought it would be terrible...i always thought i needed to be headstrong and make a beeline for the top! but "the top" has taken on new meaning, and it is so much more authentic and wonderful than anything ever before. i am praying that you find peace and contentment with your decision, which is the right one, i think! and i pray that you will have the ability to define your career around your new big beautiful family, without feeling you have sacrificed a thing.
    God bless!! hang in there!!

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  10. Thanks for your kind words, Hope. I'm enjoying my time with Jozey, but hate the added pressure me being off puts on Adam. I do t think God would have made it clear to me that I needed to do this if He didn't plan on seeing us through it. So nice to hear from you.

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